Walking with God is taking on a whole new meaning to me lately. Just about a year ago, I was feeling dissatisfied, stale, alone, and depressed. At the time we were new to this town, having moved away from some precious friends in
Louisiana. My heart was still aching over our decision not to have anymore biological children, and I had not been to church in over two years. And then one day, as I sat in the bathtub, alone and crying, my heart cried out "show me your glory Lord, I want to know you more." No more than a few days later, visiting this new church called
CUMC with my best friend Shana, I signed up for a women's study group. They were studying a book called "Breaking Free". Nervously I attended the first study group, and was welcomed with open arms into a group of ladies, I'll never forget. During that study, I did break free. God showed me how a wall had been put up between Him and I. A wall made of lies, selfishness, and resentment. God broke that wall down, and still continues to help me keep it down day by day. He healed my broken heart, and drew me close to Him. For the past year He has revealed so much of His perfect wisdom to me, there aren't words powerful enough to express my gratitude to Him. Little by little, day by day, experience by experience, He reveals Himself. I've learned so much about His mercy. Time and time again, I fall, I sin. Time and time again, He lifts me out of that pit and places me back on my feet again. I've learned so much about His grace. Everyday I wake up there are blessings surrounding me. I wake up to the greatest man I've ever known. I look into the faces of these children, beautiful healthy sweet little people that God has entrusted me to raise. And then there are my friends. Old ones and new ones, their importance to me is
immeasurable. Over the past year, God has moved mountains in the hearts of both me and my husband as he has laid the desire to adopt a child from somewhere in this world. He led me to participate in our church's preschool ministry as a puppeteer, where once again He shares His heart with me. Now I am at another turn in the road. He is teaching me about how to hear Him even more in my day to day life. How to turn my face to His, and let His glory shine brightly on my face. So I can remember "
It's Not About Me, It's All About Him"